(photo: sisters at the holidays)
holy crap it's been forever y'all.
going home to (not so) sunny california tomorrow and staying for 2 weeks.
new york, my love, i will miss you dearly.
ever more, i will miss my dance classes because they seem to balance out the overwhelming amount of sweets i consume on a daily basis.
in effect, i will have to A) cut back on my sweets intake or B) pay for classes in LA.
i refuse to do either, so we'll see how this sucker pans out...
i am so motherf-ing relieved to be going home. for a variety of reason. number one being family. number two being christmas. and number three for an undisclosed reason. we'll see how THAT sucker pans out as well. all i'm sayin is that what happens in the next 2 weeks could be very progressive in a certain department or very...non...progressive...
has this year been especially up and down-sy for anyone else? anybody? just me? ok.
it hasn't been a bad year per se, but it's had great highs and great lows. and most of all, i think it's been a year of transitions. for everybody. at least everybody who's close to me. and i think everything that transpired in 2008 happened in preparation for what's to come in 2009.
i've had big feelings about 2009 for a while now. i don't know what's gonna happen but some big shit's gonna go down and i mean that in a very positive way. and not just for myself, but for my family too. so basically, i can't wait for 2008 to come to a close and for 2009 to begin.
on a related note, because of all that's been panning out in late 2008, i feel as though everyone has been particularly antsy. attribute it to the worldwide economic crisis or global warming or what you will, but there's almost a small sense of fear in the air. as a result, it's like everyone is a little more depressed/short-tempered/anxious than normal. or maybe it's just because i live in manhattan and civilization is so condensed here that i get a higher concentration of the craziness.
but i'm hopeful. and everything's really good in my life. i really have nothing to complain about. and yet, i still have this sense of yearning. like i'm not completely fulfilled. like i'm still missing something. and most definitely, i know what it is. but in this in-between period, the purgatorial (is that even a word?) phase, i find that i'm in this balance between the extreme high and the extreme low. i have yet to break out of this stage. so that's why i'm itching for 2009 to hurry up already.
please wish me happy weather for travels. adios amigos. and much love and warm wishes for the holidays. "HUG A KITTY TODAY!" -akiko
